Ritual Menjelang Tidur

Tiap malam sekarang aku ngga pernah absen melakukan 1 ritual baru. Bukan, bukan mandi kembang 7 rupa, bukan itu. Tapi ngedengerin radio dulu sampe aku bener2 ngantuk. Radionya di hp. Jadi gampang kalo mo sms minta lagu sambil kuping tetep ngedengerin radio lewat headsetnya. Dan kalo smsku dibacain + lagunya diputerin, rasanya seneng bgt, hihiii... ;p
Seperti semalam, aku sms Prambors. Yang lagi siaran Cesar ( gile cing, skrg apal deh nama2 penyiarnya ! :P ). Aku minta lagu ini :


If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that Iam?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms


Dan, sebutir air mataku masih menetes. Hanya sebutir. Sepertinya itu perkembangan cukup bagus.
Hmmm... aku rasa nanti aku akan bisa melupakan. Mgkn ngga seluruhnya memang. Tapi it's okey. Dan, mgkn sikapku skrg salah. Tapi...masih sulit bagiku utk merubahnya. Semoga kau mau memaafkanku...

Heh, why the hell I come back here again ?!??